Tears

A couple of nights ago was so unexpected.  After I was being numb, tough, and mad at the world… I cried my heart out.   It was just a tear that leaded to another.  The grief I had these days was non-stop, causing my heart to be like a hard rock.
However, I felt a little bit relieved.  It’s really good to pour out your emotions once in a while.  It was an all-out discharge of my piling anguish.  At least, I’m feeling a little bit better than before.  Crying helps a lot.
But the next day, my eyes are swollen.  I thought its not gonna be obvious because I had natural eye bags (since birth?).  But my friend really noticed it.  She asked me if I cried last night.  She can really detect if you were crying the other night because that’s what she always do… been crying for love stuffs!

So what caused me to cry?
It’s really a very personal matter.  But you will all know about it… soon.

I’m writing a letter about what I’ve gone through these past few days.  I never planned to do it.  I started writing the letter during my international exam.  I had nothing to do on the extra time left because I wasn’t able to do my best in answering the questions.  So I just kept scribbling on the scratch paper, practicing my signature, autograph… And then I thought of writing a sort of a diary.  And when the exam ended, I continued at home and there… it happened.

The letter I wrote tells it all… expresses what I feel.   It also reveals some pieces of me.  It’s kind of autobiographical.  So just wait for it to be posted here.

x o x o,
f L o f L o