Hurt

December 22, 2005 - my stepfather passed away.  The day that changed the direction of my life.  Thank God for the strength He gives us.  

My mother and I went to the cemetery yesterday morning to visit my stepfather.

So I’ll post this song by Christina Aguilera.  I can relate to it.  You can also view two videos.  The music video, no offense to Christina fans but she just act so hard! =P And the other video, a live performance.  What an irony, you’re singing an emotional sad song during the Christmas season.  That’s what I felt last year.  My stepfather was buried on December 24, the day before Christmas. 

seems like it was yesterday
when I saw your face
you told me how proud you were
but I walked away
if only I knew what I know today

i would hold you in my arms
i would take the pain away
thank you for all you’ve done
forgive all your mistakes
there’s nothing I wouldn’t do
to hear your voice again
sometimes I wanna call you
but I know you won’t be there

ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
for everything I just couldn’t do
and I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

some days I feel broke inside
but I won’t admit
sometimes I just wanna hide
’cause it’s you I miss
and it’s so hard to say goodbye
when it comes to this

would you tell me I was wrong?
would you help me understand?
are you looking down upon me?
are you proud of who I am?

there’s nothing I wouldn’t do
to have just one more chance
to look into your eyes
and see you looking back

ohh I’m sorry for blaming you
for everything I just couldn’t do
and I’ve hurt myself

if I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you
since you’ve been away
ooh, it’s dangerous
it’s so out of line
to try and turn back time

i’m sorry for blaming you
for everything I just couldn’t do
and I’ve hurt myself by hurting you

x o x o,
f L o f L o