Help…

Help #1 - Google Ad Sense

please help me earn some bucks by just SIMPLY CLICKING on the ads here in my page found @ “Advertisements”.  i just need a click per day from you guys ok?
and if you want to have Ad Sense in your site too, just tell me and i’ll teach you   Or just click “Advertise On This Site” found on “Advertisements” as well.   thank you in advance.   don’t worry because if ever i’ll earn big from this… i’m gonna treat y’all “clickers” wehehehehe.

Help # 2 - Business Plans

if you were reading on my previous updates, you will know that i had problems… not to mention, financial problems .  we will sell our tricycle because there’s no driver anymore… my stepfather.  We will use the money for our daily needs.  My mother had no idea on what business we will do.   so share your ideas to me fwens

Help # 3 - Sinulog 2006

Our school will participate in the Sinulog Window Display Contest.  The theme is… “One beat.  One Dance.  One Vision.”
So share your creativity.  Help me (us) come up with a concept on what stuffs we will display that will fit to the theme.

Thanks in advance guysh!

xoxo,
fLofLo

UnHappy New Year

i’m really sorry for being absent here for a long time, for not updating y’all on what’s going on with me.
i’m also sorry for my previous updates (or maybe the upcoming ones) for they were so blue and despairing.
but i really appreciate all you guys who keep on checking me out here and posting your comments on my updates.  keep them coming because i love reading them.  it really helps.  i’ll be replying to y’all soon if i’ll be all right.

2006 is here.  new year.  new life?

yes, it is a totally new life for me.
my stepfather rested in peace already.

sorry because as of now, i can’t really express about what just happened.  i tried to but i might sound crazy when people will caught me here.  i might cry while i’m typing.  i’m updating my blog in a public place.  i have no PC of my own.
plus, i’m so bothered.  i still can’t figure out why God is doing this to me NOW.  i know he has some plans for me.  i still can’t figure out why I had these heavy problems ever since.  i feel like i don’t deserve to have these.  but… “Thy will be done”
and as the song goes…“Someday, I will understand in God’s whole plan and what he’s done to me…” (Britney Spears - Someday (I Will Understand) )

i don’t know what’s ahead of me.  now that i feel i’m all alone.  now that my greatest fear in life has come.  now that my nightmare turns into reality.

my problem now is not only the loss of my stepfather.  i know we will see each other there in heaven soon.  he was the bread winner of our small family.  he, mama and me.
now that he left us, we are suffering.

Recovering…For Christmas

i’m feeling a little relieved right now. my problems are starting to get solved slowly. my stepfather is fine now. he’s now resting at home. but he’s not working yet so it means that our family has still some financial issues. but for me, its OK! health is wealth! as long as we are all fine.

i also want to thank some friends of mine who really helped me get through this.  as much that i wanna name y’all… but I guessed its not so necessary.   im really thankful to have you guys!   i really see your effort of trying to help me.  and during that time, i really knew who were my real and true friends. and for those who sent their messages of enrouragement @ the Tagboard, Comment box… Thank you too.  i will reply to all your messages right after this.  once again, THANK YOU SO MUCH FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!  God bless y’all for your goodness!

and oh no… im not so aware that Christmas is coming in just like less than a week! honestly, im really unaware. im so blinded of what happened recently.

but i say it to myself, “I have to be MERRY this CHRISTMAS… No matter what”

xoxo,
fLofLo

:(

I’m sorry for the title of this blog.  There’s no other way I can express this.  If only I could paste my own face, then I would.
I’m so lonely and sad right now.  I might be depressed.

Something bad happened yesterday.  It was so sudden.
I was just reviewing for my International Exams when I heard my mama screaming for help!   I don’t want to narrate the story in detail because it hurts me more.
So to make the long story short, my stepfather had his second attack due to high blood pressure.   I was really in trauma when I heard my mama almost crying for help, hearing my neighbors…

I just didn’t know what to do so I just get inside in the house and just waiting for mama’s instructions, “get the spoon, face towel, shirt, fan…”  and I was just praying hard… so very hard.   I’m like crazy when I was praying.  I prayed for my stepfather’s safety, that he must be alive.   I even prayed like ” fail me to my exams Lord, just let my stepfather be alive”

And so God heard me.

My stepfather now is resting at home.   He can’t walk straight anymore and his mouth is like hanging, causing some speech problems.   I hope he’ll be fine soon.   He’s the breadwinner of the family.
I’m really upset and discouraged on what my mama told me.   She’s like pushing me to stop studying and find a job.   Plus, I got some sermons from my lola too.
So last night, I can’t sleep.   I’m crying while reading some notes for my international exams (supposed to be today).   It was the first time that I cried so hard that I wasn’t able to sleep.   I used to cry at nights before whenever there’s something bad happened, and that caused me to sleep because I got tired of crying.   You know what I mean?  Like when you cry, its like its easy for you to sleep afterwards.   But last night was different.   I was so bothered.   I was thinking a lot of things especially my future.   I was assuming of a dull future.   What if my stepfather dies? *knocks on wood   Can we survive?   What will happen to me? To my mama?    Hhhhuuuhhh.. enough of it!

So today, I’m supposed to have my international exam but I decided not to take it.  But I still went to school though.  I want the sched of my exams to be moved.  But the head in school said that its really impossible.  I’m studying but I guessed I can’t really concentrate.   I’m afraid I might get low score or I might fail for my scholarship contract.   I’m getting crazy.   I don’t know what to do.   So the exam-in-charge in school decided that I must not take my tests anymore because it might really affect on my performance.   And I’m starting to be pressured again because my scholarship contract is due now for a year .   And I’m really telling some entrusted people in school about my problem.   Thanks God for sending me angels in disguise.   They want to help me get a job, a part-time teacher.  And my contract?  They said they will extend it.   But I don’t know if I’ll be happy about it.   I want to finish studying now so that I can work and let my mama drowned in money!

Right now, I’m in school.  I don’t like to go home.   Its weakening.
I thought that 2005 is my year.   I had less trials compared to hell 2004!   I don’t expect that, what happened now is trying to squeeze in.

I don’t know how to end this.   I usually signed as “xoxo, fLofLo” but I can’t dare to give y’all my hugs and kisses.

Exams Coming

hi dear fwens!

i’ll be not around for like… a week or two because i’ll be staying home whole day, whole night studying hard for my upcoming UCLES (internatiol exams).

so please pray for me that I will pass my tests. please…

and oh, thank you so much for visiting my blog especially for dropping by some love… your messages!  keep them coming!
i’ll reply to ALL your messages when i’ll be back soon ok?
and to those who "linked" my site, thanks a lot!  i’ll "link back" too

xoxo,
fLofLo